After a short and non-surprising dinner today, I reluctantly sat back on the couch to watch some television. In so many ways, I've outgrown television. I confine myself to things that are not too highly boring these days which don't really include all the regional farce-oriented channels. So anyway, I sat back for some Masterchef. Trust me, I love that show. I know I am horrifying at cooking, but there is something about shows that show me how to cook things (I watch and don't really replicate them in the kitchen =P). Since the last season of Masterchef Australia ended, I've been pretty heart-broken. India has tried (and failed) at recreating this. I noticed something very weird about the way Indians were reacting to the pressure of the competition and the way the Americans and the Australians reacted to the competition.
Australians and the Americans were all "I want to make it to the finals because I want me to be good at something I really care about" while the Indians were all about "I want to make it to the finals because I want to make my relatives happy". I know, this is probably a little too stupid of me, but then again, I couldn't help but notice their ultimate satisfaction factor. Why would anybody want to do something that is not entirely making them happy? Isn't that what life should be about? - Finding YOUR purpose?!
But then, I looked at myself. I am one to talk. I end up feeling like a soggy biscuit when I'm not pleasing people. I act like I've been violated when peoples reactions don't go my way.
I suppose there is that tinge of desperation in all of us. Its the disease of trying really hard to please people, of trying very hard to be accepted.
So here is my part of the Christmas spirit (These are not resolutions per se, just something I know I need to do ^^). I am going to be the person who I really want to be. I want to choose to be a happy person. I want to choose to be somebody who can manage to be blissful even at times of ultimate sorrow. I want to choose for myself a life where I know I can be in control even when everything is topsy-turvy.
Sounds a little to optimistic eh? But hell yes I am trying!! =)
We always have a choice. And all our choices have consequences. It will be fun however, to see those who've made the wrong choices - and made it seem like I'm the one who has been wrong - tumble down into unworthiness. Afterall, what's life without a little dark humor? ;)
Merry Christmas 2011!!!
XOXO
Australians and the Americans were all "I want to make it to the finals because I want me to be good at something I really care about" while the Indians were all about "I want to make it to the finals because I want to make my relatives happy". I know, this is probably a little too stupid of me, but then again, I couldn't help but notice their ultimate satisfaction factor. Why would anybody want to do something that is not entirely making them happy? Isn't that what life should be about? - Finding YOUR purpose?!
But then, I looked at myself. I am one to talk. I end up feeling like a soggy biscuit when I'm not pleasing people. I act like I've been violated when peoples reactions don't go my way.
I suppose there is that tinge of desperation in all of us. Its the disease of trying really hard to please people, of trying very hard to be accepted.
So here is my part of the Christmas spirit (These are not resolutions per se, just something I know I need to do ^^). I am going to be the person who I really want to be. I want to choose to be a happy person. I want to choose to be somebody who can manage to be blissful even at times of ultimate sorrow. I want to choose for myself a life where I know I can be in control even when everything is topsy-turvy.
Sounds a little to optimistic eh? But hell yes I am trying!! =)
We always have a choice. And all our choices have consequences. It will be fun however, to see those who've made the wrong choices - and made it seem like I'm the one who has been wrong - tumble down into unworthiness. Afterall, what's life without a little dark humor? ;)
Merry Christmas 2011!!!
XOXO
"I want to choose to be somebody who can manage to be blissful even at times of ultimate sorrow."
ReplyDeleteChoosing to be that person is a challenge. Achieving it? Do let me know of your progress!
PS Love the poem below.
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ReplyDeleteI know, wanting to choose is easy, but getting there is hard isn't it? :)